Lost Illusion

            Lost Illusion

I just want to be

part of your symphony

And if you hold me tight

I wont let go

I trusted you 

with all my heart and soul

It wasn’t for you 

to take it this far

Too high you raised the bar

The memories were only half yours

They were mine too

The love was a piece of cake to share 

we were asked to

Not for you to have the whole

Left my life down like a troll

I wept like a baby for months

Broke my breath piece by piece

Letting you go 

was the hardest thing to do

Someone help me to get this through

You took the light when you left

Left  me in the dark

All is gone now

Says the mind that barks

How am I supposed to be happy

if everytime

the memory of your smile

cuts a sliver of my heart

I feel like the stranded leaf 

on the corner of the branch

Waiting for the water 

to reach but it never does

My mother told me to remember

after every soaring heart 

comes a happy day

After a storm

there will be a rainbow

But in the grey of the storm

I forgot about the colours

of the rainbow

I want to not want you anymore

Im falling apart

can barely breathe

Someone tell my heart

To remember to beat

In an endless garden of flowers

I will always pick you 

But just like you 

the memories flew

Carpe diem they say

But tell them

there is nothing left for me

to stay

We talked , I smiled

He wisked over my hand

I dealt in pride

You gave me the strength to live

Now you’re the reason to die

There was a “WE”, a hope

But nothing after

No love , no life , no laughter

Life is like an elevator

on your way up

sometimes 

you just need to 

let some people off

I can love you

and still let you go 

so Baby

I love you

And I’m letting you go

                                                  - the love of my life